More often than not, I profoundly think. I keep on thinking what is really happening to me. I am totally transforming my self. I am, without hesitation, willing to give up or sacrifice everything to a girl. She is a girl who struggles and exerts diligent labors to be triumphant in gaining authority over me. Why do I allow such a girl to pound my pride and belittle my personality. Where my ego had gone? I dunno..
Why don’t I have any voice to this girl? When we’re in a midst of a fiery or even not-so-heated argument, I always lose my right to be heard. Although I’ve so many things to say.. things of material weight and substance that if only given chance to be heard, should have justified and supported my stand. My idea on a particular situation has never been, during the life of this relationship, well taken. Neither my opinions nor my suggestions were given credits. She always rule. And she enjoys ruling.
Why can’t I drive without hearing an adverse comment? Yeah she’s right, it’s not my car I was driving so I should be careful. But, can’t I be careful and drive fast at the same time? Can’t I change lanes? Okay fine… I now recall her good reasons. I submit.
I really hate my self. I can’t devote even just a single day to review my lessons. I can’t read for an hour without remembering her, without thinking of what is she doing. Tsk tsk tsk… this is bad.
submissive? mmm.. i will qualify that. if that’s how you describe a person who believes that you can make a point without yelling, much less raising your voice, perhaps i am submissive.
when my ex nags, like most women do, she keeps on repeating all the things that she had already said x10 raise to infinity haha! In times like this, you need a juicy fruit gum, if none, freshmint can work as a good alternative. Mentos, however, is the best choice haha .
going back, when she nags, i listen (very carefully while composing my counter attacks haha. no, i just listen), when i got her point already, i make an effort to hug her (syempre ayaw nya pa-hug kasi nga galit, so you struggle, pag ayaw pa rin sampalin mo hahaha) or if you cannot, simply touch her hand or comb her hair with your fingers and say, “i got your point already, enuf na at baka magka wrinkles ka”. say sorry even if you really are not haha.
two days after or maybe a week, when she seems calm and tame, time to make your counter attacks haha. but do so in a least offensive way and in a normal tone of voice so as not to provoke her to bark and bark again like a furious labrador haha.
or you simply forget about making the counter attack. forget about making your point even if, to your opinion, you have a better reason. remember that staying silent does not mean a defeat. let is pass pero wag mong kimkimin at wag mong ipunin.
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hehehe i thought the girl was your mother, submissive kpo pala :] sorry huh pala comment ako hehehe. gnito tlga ako, i try to read lahat ng post hindi yung dumadaan lang pero hndi man lang ngbabasa, db? how could you get to know ung ngsusulat, khit puro letters lang mkikita mo, kahit pano salamin pa rin to ng isnag blogista :] take care!
Posted by yeine at August 30, 2008, 12:58 am